In the Dark

As I sit here in the dark, listening to some of the deepest house we can imagine, thinking some of the deepest thought I can think, it seems that there is no one else out there, that i'd ever be able to share this with. No one I'd ever end up with, who would like some of the things I like, in some of the combinations I like them. We should be so lucky, as to have someone who would stay up just as late as you would doing research or looking at something you like to look at or listening to the same music even. It's not very common...is it?

I don't know. We see these couples sometimes, that really just get along. They don't fight too much, even though other people think we have to fight for a healthy relationship, I don't see it as so important. What's important is to be open-minded and be free. Trust and be trusted, and try to overlook all these games that magazines teach women on "how to test your man" and all these tv shows that teach us men "how to be a player". It's hard to let someone right through to your core and also learning to live with that person's core. The world we live in churns out books to women such as "why men marry bitches" and what-not. Teaches not only the women but also the men on how to play games, mind-tricks, and all this foolishly childish behavior between couples is all that comes of it. We need to try to find someone who's "awake", someone who shares a common goal of success with you, and someone who will back you when all your cards are shit, and in turn someone who would depend on you when all their cards are shit. It's a mutual game, and as a team, you win.

I really hope that I would end up with that right girl, and the next girl in my life that I would love after her would be my daughter. Plus, this way I have a reason to work as hard as I do.
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ray

Transfer

So my life's in a transfer stage right now. Come to think of it, my life's always been going through some kind of change. And now that I think about it, I guess so does everyone else's right?

This time, my brother is in canada, he just flew out to start his degree at the University of Ottawa. He's going to be a civil engineer, which is good. I would like his support in my very new construction company. This means that the room I share with him, is now empty, and I'm going to have to re-do the whole thing. I miss him a lot, he's actually my best friend.

Then we have work. The construction company right now is doing ok, not too great but not bad either. It's hard work, all this together, but I have to do it, at this point in my life I can't just be sitting around wasting time, I feel guilty for some reason.

So I do whatever I can to keep as busy as my attention span would let me be. Right now, we are selling raw building materials, like plywoods, marbles & granites, micro-silica & fly-ash, etc. Pays the bills, pays some salaries and the company is running. I have big help though, my partner Puneet, or "MR 305" as he likes to put it. (Don't ask, he loves Pitbull). With him we are running this company together, I am the business development manager, and he is the operations manager. WE DO WORK.

There's also a restaurant coming in dubai, you can check the page here: Rhythm & Bites. So here we have running around between Dubai and Abu Dhabi, and TRYING to keep up with all this hustle bustle. It's not as easy as it sounds, but at the same time it's not THAT hard either, I just have a problem being focused sometimes because of all the different things going on, and then get in trouble for it because "you're all over the place, you need to focus". GEEZ. It's ok, I figure if I keep it up, eventually I'll be able to catch up with everything.

As soon as that happens everything going to change again though...welcome to my life LOL.


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ray

Dreams

Lost
Lost in my dreams
Where i can fly I can soar
Where I am free forevermore
Lost in between these worlds
These worlds where truth hurts
And dreams lie
Sweet lies, sweet dreams
Bags of cash bursting
At their seams
Time is forgotten here it seems
Iost
In this place where I can be
Where I can be me
Where I can deal with surprises
And pain, doesn't hurt so much
Here where worlds are differnt sizes
So small, then so big
Lost
And I can meet someone I forgot
And sit and remember together
What we forgot
Glimpses of tomorrow
Dream, and stay here forever
The only way to get here
Is to drift, and fall
No need to catch me
For I am already lost
I am at home, here
So deep, so so deep in sleep
Swimming in dmt
Drowning in the folds of heaven
But there's no need to breath
No need to eat no need to stop
Just dream
What isn't possible?
Running speeding flying
A flash
She's in my arms again
Hot, sweaty, heavy breathing
Bed shaking, body quaking
A flash
Then she's gone and snap
I am somewhere else
Lost, forever lost
Misty nights, hazy memories
If you could only see my dreams 
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ray

About Moleskine

Moleskine. Introduced to me by a very old friend; AT. There is heavy history behind this book...leather-bound covers, acid-free paper with a life of a thousand years..these are really good notebooks. I'd be proud to pass them along to my kids, with all my notes and thoughts.

 They even look good when you take them with you anywhere, you can even get the pocket version. Always a good friend to your thoughts. Go out and get one whenever you can, they're great.

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ray

Something New

So I guess we're going to try something new. Something fresh, something different. Maybe it will be that I'll type things on here that I would not normally say in public? who knows.

So work is busy, finally got my office room. Well, it's a big deal because in such a big company (family run) and such a long time we've been doing this now, I FINALLY GET MY OWN OFFICE ROOM!!! This is BIG people...I mean I do have my own office on another floor of the building..but this is my office on the group floor!!! huge..

what else, it's late...I got back from my office about 30 minutes ago, so just chilling on the macbook, literally sleeping in the living room right now since my grandparents kicked me out haha...I don't mind though, I'm mad flexible like that...signing off now and will try to go to bed.

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ray

The Reset

This is the first post, the first time, the first entry, the first try, since the last. I have reset.

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ray