Sometimes you wake up in the morning and miss people. But it's not such a simple process anymore, is it?
Used to be you miss someone or someone just pops up in your thought process as you sit and reminisce over a cigarette or a cup of coffee, and you leave it at that. I guess it's not so simple anymore, and in today's time we take it to the next step after that; wondering if they missed you too. It's hard to tell these days, with superficial relationships and materialistic motives to awkward and seemingly obvious introductions to and among one another. You sometimes get the feeling that maybe it didn't matter, maybe they didn't matter, or maybe you didn't.
Sometimes I think about people, great people, beautiful people, funny people, easy people, hurtful people: turns out every single one of them has left a lasting impression on my character. We forget that we need each other at the end of the day, no matter how independent we believe we are. That brings me to the people I really miss sometimes, and makes me wonder if they ever think about me, have I left a similarly lasting impression on them and their lives? One can do a couple of different things in this situation. You can sit and wonder if they miss you, or if they think about you at all, and wonder and wonder and finally get frustrated; ending up with the resolve that "Who cares, it doesn't mater...fuck 'em if they don't..".
Or you can think about it like this: if that person, whoever he/she might be, was worth remembering and was close enough to you to pop up in your mind over a coffee...then that person has done a lot for you, and they are worth the memory drift. Don't ever forget that even if that person never calls you back or doesn't ever get in touch again, that person was still important enough to you at one point in your life that you kept him/her buried deep enough all this time. Try to remember the joy and happiness that person had brought you, and don't ever forget that somewhere deep down inside, no matter what the relationship status was, there was some affection there.
Keep that in mind, and the next time you remember that chiquita banana that always kept you on your feet, that pretty girl with the big beautiful eyes and the cute smile and slamming figure...that girl you used to date and thought "yea...she's the one..I can FEEL it!"(lol)..try hard to remember that once upon a time she was all yours, and you were all hers, and at that time there was no one else on her mind. You've had your fair share; don't be greedy. Just know that somewhere, sometime, somehow, one day that person will sit down over a cup of coffee or a tall glass of cold iced tea and think to you: "I wonder where you are, I miss you. Do you miss me?"